Goodbye at Desaru

I used to think that our story will be “till death do us part”. Times and times, we are put to the test. Times and times, we survived. I thought, that was it. We will make it. But little do I know, you have always thought otherwise.

It breaks my heart to know that that you are not with me on this. It ached and hurt like never before. Disappointment and anger were all that’s left in me.

I know time has come to say goodbye. And this is the place where I shall put behind all sweet memories that were once shared by us. It’s time to lead a brand new life, one without you as the center of everything.

It hurt once again, but I know, I have to do this. With tears and pain, I do what needs to be done; to leave your shadow behind, to leave my love behind, to leave all good and bad memories behind, as I move on with my life.

I tell myself, “A new life awaits me”. I’m not sure if I have the strength to do this, but I know I have to find strength.

At last… Goodbye, my love.

(16 May 2008 – after 2 months 16 days)

哭了

漆黑的夜里，星空发亮着。

抬头望向它，眼泪直落下。

忽然间，

一切模糊了。

摘下眼镜，没有了。

都不见了。

又是漆黑一片。

2008年3月17日

是看开了，还是早就知道了？

这次和以前不一样。

已经有放弃的感觉了。

心灰了，

很累了，

不想再爱了。

这次和上次一样，

还是走到这一步。

一切的努力不再重要了。

已经没用了，

没意义了，

不属于我的了。

还会不会有下一次？

我看不可能了。

从来一次已经不一样了。

第三次了，

太迟了，

不要再痛一次了。

其实这一次，

没有那么痛了。

是看开了？

还是早就知道了？

2008年3月9日

你的空间

不知道你心里在想什么，但我知道你需要空间。

那巨大的空间，隔在我们之间。

我看不到你，也握不到你的手。

这空间太大了，把你被搞地团团转。

把你弄忙了，把你弄烦了。

这空间，几时消失呢？

它因该不会不见的。

最多，只是变小，变小。。。

但，那会是什么时候呢？

2008年1月14日